A Word unsaid can change your lives
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I never knew that I would ever think
of this incident again in my life . The memories do bring a lot of smiles and
pain to my mind .I was in a hangover following a deep trenched love failure ,it
was then I met him .He never threw a glance on me . I was just another simple
girl for him .The funniest part of the
story or rather the cliché line is he was my ex-boyfriend’s friend. I was
rooted in a fancy love world that would never bring colors. He was the one who
actually taught me to walk past my dream world and taste the bitter reality of
life .
I enjoyed my chats with him which
included long hours of intellectual discussions , midnight phone sex ( lol
still brings creeps to my skin) ,a few clicks of personal pampering and so on
. I did love him or rather I wanted him
to be my life partner ( this was only in
my inner soul).The first time I met him was in a restaurant .We sat opposite to
each other ordered a kerala cuisine ,the taste of the food did wake up the
hungry beast in me but the very thought of gentle man next to me made me behave
like a lady. We looked each other into eyes for long .I broke a piece of bread
and fed him ,we shared a beer ( quite unusual in the mallu love scenes).
The first meeting did leave a love
mark in my mind ,rest of the contacts was through social media .Those were the days I enjoyed the most
,every flower had his name printed on it .I used sit alone staring at the roof
imagining performing tasks as his wife .I was often caught for laughing alone
.This personal joy never lasted long because one day he declared “ You are
never the type of girl I could marry “.Tears did roll down my eyes I hid them
.I could feel a pricking pain that swept into my heart just like being stiched
using a needle without anesthesia .I congratulated myself for taking the right decision of never telling
him my inner feelings for him .My ex-boyfriend was correct when he said your
are a specimen and not every man can accept you either you should change or the
general concept should change .
Years passed away
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I had to attend a friend’s wedding
so I rang him up and told “ buddy just let me stay at your place I’l be there
next Monday “,said all was fine .I was very excited I am seing him after 2
years and I decided I am going to tell him this time that I would like to be
his girl ( am I a girl any more I am 23 ).I just called him the day before to
know if everything is ok ,he seemed to
be very tensed his voice usally strong and bold was trembling .He told
me he was in the middle of a crisis and couldn’t tell me anything now . I hung
up the phone and thought what the problem was? …………………………………………
Days passed away I came to know that
he was the married the very next day I had planned to visit him . It was a love
cum arranged marriage .Ghosh !!!! the first thing I felt was pure jealous to
the girl not because he was so great but because he chose her over me .The
coming days I used to scan their pictures on facebook and keep reminding me she
is just a normal one .nothing special ( Alas all males have smart girlfriends
but when it comes to wife they select the timid ones and later regret they did
the wrong thing lol specially mallu ones).
Years passed away …………………………………………………………………………………………………………
I called my first boyfriend for a
causal talk he said he was fine and all ,then he revealed some thing that
shattered me like a glass being hit by stone . “Liya you don’t know how much
Rahul loved you he was mad about you ,the very thought of meeting you again and
he proposing you and you denying it made him marry Rachel .” ( what the hell is
that a reason to get married I thought ) .Later I came to know he also liked me
but it was just a communication gap that changed our lives .Anyways all for the
grace of God he is a happy married man , and I am a jovial maiden enjoying life
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